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Arrrggghh!!! [Aug. 1st, 2004|07:38 pm]
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[hippiewrites]
You know, I'm just sick and tired of listening to criticism.. When my hair was long, it looked ratty.. yet my Dad still wouldn't let me get it cut.. Well when I came home with it cut short, he loved it. It was straightened and everything..

When I go to work, I put a hairband in, to keep it out of other people's food and such.. Then Dad said "What's up with the hairband? You look like an old housewife". "Do something with your hair!" So basically, when it's curly, it's bad..


Well after dinner, as he usually does, he gave me this look. He told me I need to do something with my hair because it looks like I just got out of bed.. Which it doesn't.. I got out of the shower and combed my hair and put infusium in.. like I always do. So it seems to me that if my hair isn't straight, it isn't good..

He said "You're 16, you need to start caring about your appearance".. Yeah, like I don't? Riiiighht.. Then he's like "And I shouldn't have to tell you that". Uh huh.. It just pisses me off. He made me feel.. ugly.. Like I was going to cry. Way to boost my self esteem, that's for sure..

I don't even like me now.. I mean, I do, but sometimes it just doesn't feel like me.. I mean, I have contacts and my hair's straight.. I miss my glasses (which I'm wearing right now) and my curly hair.. That made me me..

Ugh.. I don't know. If you're still reading this, thank you. At least someone cares..
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[User Picture]From: act1_scene2
2004-08-01 04:50 pm (UTC)
i know how you feel.....when my nana comes over she is always liek " wow...your sister is so skinny..why are you so fat? maybe if we starved you for a week you would loose a little of that." everytime she comes over i usually cry myself to sleep because she makes me feel so ugly and fat.....it makes me feel really bad.....:-(
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[User Picture]From: hippiewrites
2004-08-01 05:41 pm (UTC)
OMG!! I can't believe your own flesh and blood would talk to you like that! My God! Your Nana actually says that? That's horrible!

Well if you ever feel the urge to cry yourself to sleep again, just give me a call. ;)
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From: kisargi
2004-08-01 05:11 pm (UTC)
Tell your Dad to shove it. =/
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[User Picture]From: hippiewrites
2004-08-01 05:42 pm (UTC)
HAHAHAHA!! Jessica, this is why I love you.. You never fail to make me laugh with one of your lovely snide remarks. :) You little thug, you. ;)
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From: kisargi
2004-08-01 05:51 pm (UTC)
Haha. :D I'm a little thug.

... Word.
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[User Picture]From: hippiewrites
2004-08-01 06:09 pm (UTC)
Heh..

...yo...cuh.. dawg.. lolol.. I'm sooo white.
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From: penisonurwenis
2004-08-01 07:27 pm (UTC)
Aw, mesa so sorry Em!! You're pretty.. you're pale silky skin ;) and you're curls make you unique that much more.. so.. ignore your dad or get tough, like I would.. and yell at him. Haha..
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[User Picture]From: hippiewrites
2004-08-02 07:14 am (UTC)
Heh.. Well thanks, Dani! 'Pale silky skin'..that's funny. :) Well right after he did that, I power-walked to the bathroom and sprayed my hair frantically..

I yelled at him a little too.. ;)
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[User Picture]From: saint_vincent23
2004-08-02 09:29 am (UTC)
Give him the finger.

Of course, that plan of action is probably why my dad doesn;t like me so much anymore.... hehehehe.
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[User Picture]From: hippiewrites
2004-08-02 09:32 am (UTC)
Lolololol... Well, that may have something to do with it! :)
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[User Picture]From: saint_vincent23
2004-08-02 09:41 am (UTC)
But really. It's your bloody-damn hair, not HIS.... it's not like you tell him what to do with HIS hair... and if YOU'RE happy with YOUR hair, there should be no reason for him to be involved at all.
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[User Picture]From: hippiewrites
2004-08-02 10:11 am (UTC)
My sentiments EXACTLY!! I mean, he doesn't have to live with it.. I do..

That's what I don't get about parents sometimes.. They're like "You're not walking out of the house wearing that".. Well, they don't have to wear it?!
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[User Picture]From: saint_vincent23
2004-08-02 01:23 pm (UTC)
*sighs* This is why I live with mom.
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[User Picture]From: hippiewrites
2004-08-02 02:30 pm (UTC)
Me too.. along with my Step-Dad.. My biological one doesn't really seem to have time..
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[User Picture]From: saint_vincent23
2004-08-02 07:57 pm (UTC)
If only my biological one didn't have time for me. Of course, I always keep up hope that my "dad" really isn't my dad and my mom had an affair with a really awesome person who I'd be proud to have as a father.

People tell me that I have an overactive magination.
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[User Picture]From: hippiewrites
2004-08-03 07:57 am (UTC)
Well, sometimes an imagination can save you.
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