||[Aug. 1st, 2004|07:38 pm]
You know, I'm just sick and tired of listening to criticism.. When my hair was long, it looked ratty.. yet my Dad still wouldn't let me get it cut.. Well when I came home with it cut short, he loved it. It was straightened and everything.. |
When I go to work, I put a hairband in, to keep it out of other people's food and such.. Then Dad said "What's up with the hairband? You look like an old housewife". "Do something with your hair!" So basically, when it's curly, it's bad..
Well after dinner, as he usually does, he gave me this look. He told me I need to do something with my hair because it looks like I just got out of bed.. Which it doesn't.. I got out of the shower and combed my hair and put infusium in.. like I always do. So it seems to me that if my hair isn't straight, it isn't good..
He said "You're 16, you need to start caring about your appearance".. Yeah, like I don't? Riiiighht.. Then he's like "And I shouldn't have to tell you that". Uh huh.. It just pisses me off. He made me feel.. ugly.. Like I was going to cry. Way to boost my self esteem, that's for sure..
I don't even like me now.. I mean, I do, but sometimes it just doesn't feel like me.. I mean, I have contacts and my hair's straight.. I miss my glasses (which I'm wearing right now) and my curly hair.. That made me me..
Ugh.. I don't know. If you're still reading this, thank you. At least someone cares..